.. Smile ..

When all you feel like doing is screaming. That about sums up my day.

My surgical follow up appointment was a farce.

I have a hard, swollen, uncomfortable lump where my port is. Oh, and it's been conveniently located right on my waist line. I feel it when I bend over. It's not fun.

A situation at work that may become untenable. And toxic.

And news today that I thought I was okay hearing. I wasn't. I'm trying to be.

I'm teary. Look at me sideways and the dam might burst.

But smile, I must. Even though I feel like screaming.