Nip 'n' tuck

No doubt this entry is going to raise some eyebrows. I expect there will be skeptics and critics amongst you. Those who will not or cannot understand my reasons. Those who will say it’s all for vanity. But I would like to hope there are a few of you out there that have an open mind and maybe even a couple who are quietly (or vocally) backing Bandit Girl every mad step of the way on her journey.

So what’s the fuss?

I’m considering cosmetic surgery. The whole thing is in it’s infancy stages. I mean, I’m only just now heading into a weight range that would warrant starting research to begin with. Believe me, I’m not in a screaming rush to go under the knife. And trust me, it won’t be for the reason of weight loss but rather to inhibit the jiggle of the jiggly bits which steadfastly refuse to be non-jiggly. Technical, huh? The basic plan is this … I am going to get to a weight where I feel really comfortable in my skin; maintain this for a couple of months and only then go for some nip ‘n’ tuck.

I’m considering the following:

• A lift and plump to the boobs
• Liposuction (or safer alternative) to my stomach, inner thighs, bingo wings and maybe neck (if the fatty pocket doesn’t completely disappear with further weight loss)
• Nose job – this is not a priority and I may never have this done. I have wanted my nose done since I was 20 but most people assure me that it’s fine – I, however, think it’s a little bulbous!

I guess some of it’s vanity but the other side to it is that I have NEVER felt comfortable in my body. I have never looked at myself and gone “Hot damn, diggity dog .. you’re on fire!” or smiled to myself, smug with the knowledge that I look fantastic. My youth is galloping past and I want my gawd damn moment to shine. I want to feel ridiculously comfortable in my skin. I want to look how I always dreamt I could look. I want to look at the end product – surgery enhanced and all – and be proud of what I see … knowing just how much hard work, effort, dedication and determination went into achieving it. And that I achieved the one thing I thought I couldn’t do.