Careening around a sharp corner on 2 wheels ...

Oh my gawd! I have just perused my eating journal and found I have eaten chocolate 12 days out of 13! What the?! I know I haven't gorged myself on chocolate but it's the fact I've eaten it on a daily basis for a substantial period that concerns me. If I keep this parlarva up, I'm not going to lose another bloody ounce. To add to this, I've eaten atrociously over the past two days ... I have to get a serious grip. My two bad eating days have comprised of the following:

Wednesday:

• Muesli/yoghurt (1 cup)
• x2 half shot skinny lattes (small)
• Skinny blueberry muffin
• Chocolate
• Chilli con carne with low fat sour cream (1 cup)
• 250ml low fat milk

Today:

• 1/2 cup baked beans with 1 poached egg
• 1/2 glass smoothie
• Chocolate
• Half shot skinny latte (small)
• 15 cashew nuts/1 dried fig
• 1/2 glass low fat milk
• 2 slices of vegetable and egg pizza (no crust)

To the astute reader, you will no doubt notice my lack of fruit or vegetable intake ... I feel so disgusting and sluggish because of it. I must admit, my bad eating days are not nearly as horrific as they were prior to surgery. Back then, on a 'bad' day I would find my eating completely out of control .... not unlike careening around a sharp corner on two wheels. Nowdays, it's disappointing that I have chosen to pump rubbish into my body but it's not an irrepairable, fall-off-the-wagon-for-a-month-or-two mistake ... at the next meal I dust myself off and hop right back on the rickshaw.

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I found my WW food journals at the beginning of the week ... thought I'd share with you an excerpt from my food journal prior to sugery, 6 weeks post-op and currently. I find it dead interesting ... but feel free to poke your eyes out with boredom if it's not your thing!

Pre-surgery:

• Banana
• 2 poached eggs, mushroom, tomato and onions
• Watermelon (2 slices)
• Ham, tomato and onion sandwich (2 slice of grained bread)
• Yoghurt (200 gram)
• Strawberries (1 punnet)
• 1 slice of toast with nutella
• Haloumi cheese (3-4 slices)
• Fried octopus and greek salad
• Diet coke
• Herbal tea

Post surgery (6 weeks):

• Porridge, milk and honey (1 standard serve)
• Babybel cheese (lite) x1
• Grapes (1 serve)
• Yoghurt (200 gram)
• Chilli con carne (1 bowl)
• 1/2 shot skinny latte (small)
• Pecans (6)
• Mandarin
• Yoghurt, honey and sunflower seeds (250 gram)
• Salmon fillet with grilled vegetables (& pesto)
• Licorice

Post-fill:

• 1/2 glass of smoothie
• Muesli/yoghurt
• 1/2 shot skinny latte (small)
• Chicken (100 gram), salad and lite mayonnaise
• Yoghurt, honey and sunflower seeds (250 gram)
• Chilli con carne with low fat sour cream (1 cup)
• Herbal tea

Just a small difference in the amount of food I can eat, huh? I'm liking it a lot! I sometimes still get hungry inbetween meals and have a small snack (fruit or yoghurt). If I find myself getting hungry inbetween I have found it's because I have either a) not eaten enough protein at the previous meal or b) not drunk enough water in between times. I mean, I'm still losing weight (although fingers crossed for next week considering my sub-optimal diet!) with my current level of fill .... so I just have to do a little fine tuning to my eating habits to kurb the break through hunger periods and all will be well.